First off, I should preface this by saying that I am NOT feeling well to begin with today. Due to the last 3 of 4 nights spent storming, I believe my allergies are saying, “enough of this shit.”
My throat feels like it’s about half the size it should be; my glands are swollen; I’m sneezing and my ears are hurting and stuffy. I’m pouring myself vitamin C and drinking orange juice and taking allergy medicines, but it’s not really working.
Then I am letting this crazy-ass haircut I got grow out. It was really cute- for about 5 weeks. I’m now 10-12 weeks into it and I’m not liking it now. I might like it more if I had time to fix it, but I don’t or at least I don’t make it. I want my hair to be longer again and this isn’t working for me right now. Damn that natural curl that I was given. Shit.
I also need my brows and lashes tinted, and my brows waxed again, but I’m in the middle of freakin’ nowhere, and I have no effing idea where to go to get these things done, and it’s not like I can just run up the road on a five minute trip. I’m usually 9 miles away from the highway down a gravel road, and the closest *real* town is something like 35 miles. Maybe I should give up on trying to be girlie? I mean, since caring about how I look seems like an exercise in frivolity.
Oh, and did I mention I feel fat? Yup. Fatty me. I’m not really of course, but I feel like it and I’m sans mountain bike- thanks to you shithead ex husband- and I don’t know that I’d have time to ride it anyhow, but I’ve at least got some nice gravel roads to ride on should I actually get it back.
Basically I might should go back to bed and see if I can’t wake up on a *better* side of the bed- the one that allows me to count my blessings- like that I *GET* to ride beautiful, non-piss-headed horses all day, I’ve got great company, and I’ve got tall grass, a sun-filled sky to do this in. I’m struggling with that at the moment, however.