I have a LOT going on in my life right now and I can’t really talk about it like I’d like to.
I’m contemplating the past; and looking toward the future- wondering exactly how my past is going to affect my future and regretting a lot of what happened in the past, for countless reasons.
Part of me feels like there are no such things as mistakes- as those can be chalked up to learning experiences which can turn a person into a wiser, more-whole being.
There’s a lot I’d like to say (and tell to the world right now) that is really better left, at this moment, unsaid.
I desire to be treated as an adult; left to my own devices to sort out my life- just me and God. I don’t like letting people down, and while if they’re good people, they’ll still love me, I don’t worry about letting God down. Why is that? I hate it that what the world sees isn’t always the whole picture, and it’s not their job to judge me or my actions. And it’s not their job to tell me they disagree with me either, is it?
Maybe, but as christians we are called to hold each other accountable.
I should maybe rephrase that to read: it’s not their job to judge me if they’ve not walked in my shoes. Maybe that makes more sense?
I feel that in the END…we all only have one person to be accountable to…ourselves. Life is short, and we only get one chance. I don’t think that God put us on this earth to be miserable..remember you are already forgiven…just have to ask. My mom asked me before my first divorce…Ali…let me know when you get sick and tired of being sick and tired. Be happy Jen…what ever that means.